Did you notice the festive looking blog? I thought it would be fun to create something a bit more seasonal from time to time. Hopefully this won't be up until Easter like this LOL
I feel like crying today, actually, I am crying on the inside and it's trying to come out but I won't let it.
Maybe it's because what I am so sad about isn't anything earth shattering and some might say it is just materialistic. Yes, it is materialistic in some ways, but I am sad because of the memories and what I wanted to do for my daughter. Marla is coming a week from today and I am so beyond thrilled to have her to myself for 3 weeks (ok, Jim can share her too) I asked her a few weeks ago if she wanted to help decorate for Christmas or if I should just do it and have it ready when she arrives. She opted for me to have it already finished when she arrives since it will be so close to Christmas when she gets here. I wanted everything to be just right. All the decorations we have had for years and years and years. My Christmas villages that we would put out, fake snow, the pointsettias, garland, lights, etc. All these things I wanted to share once again with her. It's really hard for her to be in the states without us for the holidays. No home to really enjoy as her own, no familiar decorations, no stocking with her name on it. I can't tell you how excited I was to start decorating.
Well, when we moved to Italy we could only fit so much in the truck/car, so Jim when Jim would go to Hungary he would bring more things back home with him. Last year, he didn't go around Christmas so I had no decorations. This year, he purposely set out to get the decorations so we could have them for this year. Well, he came home and they weren't with him. Only a few things that were in one container. Noone can find the other boxes of stuff. It is things that wouldn't mean anything to anyone else. The villages weren't expensive, they were bought with coupons and after Christmas sales, take 50% off the sale price, etc. That is how I shopped! My ornaments were mostly home made by friends who came to the ornament parties I used to have. Years of collected things just disappear. I can only pray that somewhere in a dark corner of some obscure place they are sitting there, all tucked away waiting for me to find them once again.
It doesn't matter in the long run I know. But right now, it matters to me.
Please pray we can find them one of these days...along with some other special things that are missing!
Sorry for the downer, but it's just one of those days!